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Old 11-18-2012, 07:54 PM   #33
a has-been that never-was
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Originally Posted by Motomuffin View Post
I never got knocked up, never got married ( haven't had a real boyfriend in 20 yrs) and have 3 family members. I don't know what i'd do faced w/ the knowledge of imminent demise... Buy a new bike I suppose.... and take off.
Mom was lucky, after a lifelong battle w/ depression she died of a massive heart attack.
I feel pretty done w/ this life. I don't have too many expectations of the rest of it given my own struggles w/ depression, but wouldn't off myself in an obvious way due to the few family members I have left.
I never got anybody knocked up (not for lack of trying.) I did get married for better or worse (it got worse.) I have had real girlfriends for over twenty years (I feel blessed for that, esp Sylvia who was actually my dom partner.)

I do know what I did when faced with the imminent demise of my loved one: I supported her to her last dying breath. It was one of the best choices I ever made in my adult lifetime and I would do it again in spite of all the pain & agony without a moments hesitation; including buying a new KTM that we both loved to ride the piss out of!

I have been lucky so far. I am blessed with parents still alive and 60 years together. They are both legally blind, but not of or to each other.

I am not blind to the effects of depression on those around me. I feel even at my late age that I am beginning more than ending, there just isn't enough time to do all the great things I wanna do.

I am glad to know you would not off yourself; that would be bad and I'd kick your ass for doing so. That would be a very selfish thing for you to do in my opinion.

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