You have my complete support...and sympathy. I know exactly where you are coming from and love your passion and honesty. If I had been with you I prolly would have packed it in by now. Some people don't understand that as we get on into the 'bucket list' side of our lives most of us can say we have been thru the shyte before. So why the Hell go thru it again. At least in my case.
But you are gettin thru it, brother. Hang in there. Argentina awaits.