Ramble Warning Below, Read at your Own Risk! I remember a time when I breathed, ate, dreamed of motorcycling. All day, every day, it ran through my veins. I loved it, I couldn't stop thinking about it, I had to immerse myself in it 24/7. It was my passion, my one true love. But life has changed. With the job I've had for awhile now, I have to commute to California (from Phoenix) on a fairly regular basis. I have to deal with the rush hour and idiots here, the rush hour and idiots there- honking horns, close calls, traffic jams. It's been like this for awhile. I'm lucky to have a lady who likes to actually share life with me. She tags along with me and I tag along with her, we stick together. When I go riding, 99% of the time she comes along on the back. I have a 2013 BMW R1200GS Adventure. The bike screams "Take me off road" but whenever I do I always have a hard time being two up. It just doesn't seem to work well. I know some have made it work but for me I'm always worried to death about dropping the bike with her on it, I don't want her to get hurt. When it's just me? Balls to the walls, who gives a #%&. I've followed the proper procedures, I deflate the tires to the proper PSI and as long as I'm on a well packed and grated dirt road (which most people seem to give me shit for) we do fine, but when you hit those large spots of loose rocks and sand, I've had some very close calls... Those close calls by myself on a dirt bike would probably make me go "LOL HAHAHA CLOSE ONE" but with her and on a $24k dollar motorcycle it makes me go "Oh Jesus, please let this end." I find it very hard to find the types of "dirt roads" I've been looking for. A lot start out just find but those pockets of sand and loose rocks attack inevitably and often without warning. I absolutely love the bike I have, which we have aptly named "Behemoth". It is beautiful and it is awesome, but it is also very big and very top heavy. Riding around in traffic it tends to be a bit cumbersome. Nothing I can't take care of, but it does require more work at slow speeds. It gets annoying after awhile. I know most people will say "The fix for you is to stick to the backroads and start some serious day trip'n" which I agree, I need to do more of. But it seems like I never quite have the time for that and as of late it never seems to really work out. When I do take a "day trip" I always fight at odds with myself as to what gear to wear. I've got a set of "4 season" gear, gloves boots jacket pants, but on a hot day here in Arizona it makes you absolutely miserable. Then again, if I go out in a t-shirt, shorts and my vans it makes me feel like an absolute idiot... And naked to. I'm guessing a very light weight jacket paired with some blue jeans would make me feel better, but again I'm not sure, not when the heat gets up there and if you take a "adventure ride" and it starts raining on you in that tiny mesh jacket, then what? I like to be prepared. I know I know, I'm over thinking this one. But I never seem to be in my element anymore, or I'm uncomfortable. I've mulled over the idea of getting another bike. Parting with Behemoth almost scares me, I love the bike to death. I've ridden a few Harley's I like, but I hate the culture associated with it. I've always been a motorcycle enthusiast and love the "atmosphere" associated with adventure/touring bikes. The Harley culture seems to be more of a "let's pretend to be angry on the weekend, fists in the wind- because we can't at our day jobs. Oh, why is that guy waving at me? What does counter steer mean?" sort of thing filled with people who I seriously doubt even have their endorsements. I pay monthly for my motorcycle and often question, "Could I pay this much monthly for something that is less of a hassle and more enjoyable?" Some times, it feels like I'm just trying to keep myself in motorcycling. Anyone I know that I've talked to about it has said "NO NO NO! Don't sell a motorcycle to get X_item/toy, you'll be sorry!" so I keep on trying. I've entertained the idea of getting a Jet Ski. They look incredibly fun and I love being around the water, I could even pull one with my car, but people have told me I would get bored of it very quickly (even though there's a big beautiful lake 15 minutes from me, about 3 more less than an hour from me and Lake Havisu is just under 3 hours away). It seems fun but everyone has said I'm nuts for it. I remember a time when I was more heavily into sport bikes and tended to ride them solo. I would go extremely fast, carve the canyons and seek thrills on it. Then you begin to mature and realize those speeding tickets are effecting your insurance rates and are risking the life that is not just yours anymore. Again, I was looking at this "fastest on the market Jet Ski" (tops out just under 90mph bone stock) and thought "It's still dangerous but maybe a better way to get some thrill seeking back into my life?" Again though, people said it would get boring quickly and the thrill would wear off. I dunno, I've never ridden a Jet Ski before... I looked at UTV's being in Arizona- an off road wonderland. The things seem like a ton of fun but there's one huge problem, the price. They are unbelievably overpriced due to supply and demand. $20,000 for a glorified go cart with some suspension and off road tires? About half that would be fair and peg my interest. I also looked into dirt bikes, figured it would be a good way for me and the old lady to ride around together and "possibly" decrease some of the risks associated with street riding, but it has been a good decade since I rode a true dirt bike and keep thinking they are highly unstable (more stress than fun). If I had the answer, I guess I wouldn't be posting right here. I'm just looking for some feedback. I want to feel some excitement again, some joy without stress and discomfort. If anyone has any suggestions or could share some light on the matter, maybe you've dealt with similar? I'm all for hearing it.