Cliff notes: Fed up with my life, job, bills, etc. want to just ride my motorcycle. In way too deep have no way out, looking for inspiration / ideas. The long version: In a couple months Ill be turning 30 and I need to turn my life around. On the surface things would seem OK, I have a decent job (just to have one nowadays is good), I commute in to work with friends and save on gas money, I have a decent house that is a two family with a great tenant, I have an ATV, a motorcycle, a jet ski, a van, and borrowing a car from my parents. Im in good health, rarely get sick, etc. But, Im up to my neck in debt, I hate my job, and I hate all the bullshit that comes along with owning a house right now. I have no money in savings. I somehow manage to make all my monthly payments on time, between getting some help from my parents, selling off possessions, going without necessary amenities, or putting a little something on a credit card. Lets start with the debt, I got my first credit card right after graduating high school, $1000 limit and by the time I came back from my first year of college it was at the max, I have been in debt ever since. Back in 2008 when I bought my house I was nearly free down to $5000 in debt. But between trying to keep my same lifestyle and spending money on the house to get it ready for a tenant, not to mention income expected from a tenant that wasnt coming in brought my total debt skyrocketing again. Right now its about $30,000, plus student loan from college ($10k), plus money owed eventually to my parents for them bailing me out a couple times ($7k), and then the mortgage on the house ($154k). Ive generally good picking cards / credit offers but I have also royally screwed up a few times as well. Example being Home Depot, I needed to buy thing for the house, but income was tight so not all the offers got paid off in the no interest time period. Last year being the worst, total interest paid last year was over $1000. The balance that remains is at 25.99%. Everything else is near its limit. So after doing this credit dance for the past 10 years I am at my end with it all. Next up the job, I went to school and studied information technology. Graduated in 2003 right when the IT field went to shit, so all during school when they were promising 50k out of school none of that materialized for me. I was an average student with average drive (3.0GPA). Whereas one of my friends who is a workaholic did get picked up by IBM and is still with them today. I was not ambitious and a little while after graduation (March 2004) settled into a service advisor position at the local VW dealership. At the time I was a VW nut and in the beginning it was great, I was working with a bunch of my friends, customers were 75% normal, 25% weird or assholes. Within a year there things started to turn. First the dealerships hours included a full day on Saturday (closed Sunday and Monday) which was normally when I would spend the whole day with my girlfriend until her second job at a restaurant at around 5pm. She would also occasionally work Sundays, so in the past I always had Sundays to myself. With the job that changed so Sundays were a toss up, I missed things I wanted to do just to hang out, etc. We broke up right before Christmas. I never dated anyone else and due to the money issue above havent since. The job wasnt the only reason but it was a big part. Other things with the job changed too, some of my friends I worked with left. An advisor was fired and not replaced putting more strain on myself and the other advisor, being able to take a lunch break disappeared. Customers became more of a pain and demanding. That job finally ended in March of 2009 when I was fired the day after my birthday. I had not had a good birthday the day before and I came into work on Tuesday with the shop foreman / dispatcher out sick another day along with the other advisor no where to be seen. He did come in around 8:30am but he was in sorry shape, horrible cough that had him up all night and barely any voice left. Around 9:30am a customer came in for an appointment that was not on the schedule and I did not even know if we could do the work (they had an Audi, we are VW and some things ARE different). I went to the dealership owner who was in the shop playing around (small dealership, owner is also general manager and a salesman, plus he plays around in the shop) to ask him he he set this up and if he wanted a repair order written or whether it was just a back door deal. He replied to write a repair order, so I turned and walked away to get it done. He made a comment as I was walking away, I cant do your job for you. That upset me, because my job is dealing with VW customers who have appointments, so before I reached the door from the shop to the service desk I punched a hole in a wall. Things were normal for about an hour until I got called up to his office. He said he was tired of my attitude to customers (unmerited I was always nice to customers) and fired me. Given the state of the other advisor and not another person in service I ended up staying until about 3:30pm before leaving. When I told the other advisor he said he would understand if I left, I just didnt feel right leaving him like that. So with that job done I was unemployed for 3 months, I did not have any luck finding a IT related job in the meantime so I ended up taking a service receptionist position that my friend helped me line up at another VW dealership. The idea was appealing at first, answer phones and some other tasks, and I get to pass the buck to the a service advisor if a customer I was talking needed more attention. But unfortunately that has not turned out so well because my past as an service advisor has had me doing a lot more than I want to and a lot more headaches. Also back when I started in VW customers were 75% normal and 25% assholes, now that has flipped. That has had me so fed up that in September one day I just walked out. Came back an hour later talked to the boss quick and went home for the rest of the day. I was refreshed for about a month until it happened again. This time the boss was out, I never told him but he found out a couple days later, was disappointed I didnt tell him. I hate going to work everyday, I hate every time I have to answer the phone (which is a lot being a receptionist), and I was never one to enjoy dressing formally. I would love a job where I can work a normal 8 hours in casual clothes and go home, well or win the lotto and not have to work. Whenever I look for IT jobs, everything starts out at help desk work with is dealing with people and something I cant stand doing anymore. And even if I did want to make the jump the beginning salaries are less than what I barely get by on now. My house has been good for the most part but I just dont want to deal with anymore issues. I was dropped by my first insurance company for some BS reasons, taxes go up, new insurance policy has gone up $100 each year for the past two years. I can barely afford my heating oil to heat the house. I bought right near the collapse of the housing market so Im about 90% there is no way can sell for what I owe on the house. So I desperately want to get on my bike and ride away, but cant and there is no end in sight. What the fuck am I supposed to do now???