Unfortunately you will never learn what riding is truly about and will miss the essence of the experience. Go find a 50 cc scooter and ride the tits off it for a year and then graduate to a 125. Work your way up and you may find you'll never want a ZX14 but will be in love with riding which is a different thing altogether. If you kill yourself on the ZX that's your business and I could care less. It's just a shame that you don't seem to understand what riding is about.